感恩。谢谢这一切。有时会不小心忘了这些真的让我很快乐。

just realized.....in about 2 weeks....i won't need to drive 30-60 minutes to school/hospital daily anymore.

this is a very happy thought!!!

can't believe im so near to making it. must work harder to end it good. definitely one hella journey

with so much blessings...so so much

today i woke up in the dark of my room wanting to start my day, expecting the familiar dreadful lump-in-my-throat feeling that has been plaquing me for the past few months.......

it's gone.

just like that.

finally gone.

:')

it has been a really bumpy ride and i can't believe i am able to ride it out.

i was humbled, and grateful and my heart is full.

i don't want anything else except to keep this bliss and calmness inside me for as long as i can. and to fight really hard, tooth and nail... just to enjoy being really okay.

thank you time, thank you god, thank you meself. guess it's a new chapter :)

ps all the best little brother for your first pretty big deal exam

Today is Buddha's day. i want to give thanks.. everything is so good here i am so calm and i am doing the things i love and made brave decisions that make me excited. everyone i love is in good health. i am still running. and doing medicine. i have such good friends. and brothers. and so much good food. and tmr is sunday. so much thanks. i am a lucky girl.

wonderful news today from a good friend. very happy for him :)) and proud. congrats. what an inspiration. that cheer me up a little after the constant news of the good people passing away too soon..an mrsm teacher, an art teacher, and my batchmate from mrsm- in a freak accident down LDP. life's short, cherish it, and remember to keep ourselves knee-deep in happiness. as much as possible. life's way too short. you never know persevering, XX

'i am the first one in and the last one out of the library. for real.'
 im living on vending machine food now, very bad stuff, so that i can study longer'
'and eat pizza almost everyday'

today i talked to my brother, it has been so long. we talked about alot of stuff, about his life and my life and things under the sun. i told him about my decision, and realized there are some people in my life who know me so well despite not seeing each other often, and i am thankful for them.

i am having my finals in 4 weeks and he's taking his first professional paper in 3. he is working really hard... i am too.. for what we want in each of our lives.

all the best, kid. i am proud of you, work hard like how an asian should. soon we'll meet and do and see so much amazing stuff together to compensate for all these hard work...the fun!!!!!!!

just got my studying done, brain's still a little agitated so i shall write abit. 


things, they have been good. really good. 


yesterday was so nice. i went to a government's clinic and learnt how to manage a newly diagnosed diabetic patient. the MO took me through the steps, it was good learning. i diagnosed, reviewed the bloods, started the medications according to guidelines...(love!), did all the screening like ECG visual acuity feet examination weight height everything by myself, wrote referral letter for fundus camera, filled in all the diabetic records and finally counseled the patient for diet and lifestyle changes. took me nearly an hour, but worth it. 


i have always been so afraid of managing diabetic patient. finally i learn how to do it properly. thank you nicest MO


i love a doctor's work. so much. :)))

so busy + so much to do :(

this week meant so so much to me and i am thankful for all that transpired, im so thankful and i can't be thankful enough for that thursday morning the one which i woke up realizing i am back to being the someone whom i used to know.

it's the most precious thing.

the most important thing. 

that day itself was filled with so much wretched people and things. i thought of the blind sle girl all day long and that paralysed malay man too. life can be so complicated. and wretched. 


monday i didnt think i could run long this week, saturday i pluck some courage from the very depleted self and just go through the motions. it made me happy because it turn out to be one of my strongest run. so i guess...i am back to being strong :) 


thank.you.God.

thank god for dad and mom. what would i do without their love and support.