dad's day, 30km run and blessings

i prefer telephone calls over text messages, and seeing people over telephone calls. Always. i appreciate friends who call me just to whine and talk about nothing in particular, and friends who know having a meal together is one of the best things in life. i think sending texts to someone just to ask for favours are damn rude. but that's just me. i want to give thanks for all the good food this week, for the time i can be with the people i love, for being able to pick mom and brothers up from the airport while having ice cream, for being excited and stayed up late, for sleeping in on saturday morning in my bed and for long car rides with them.

i spent saturday getting really excited about alot of things. haha! and then i calmed down and hang out with my brothers in the living room, watching them doing and helping with homework while i read like a happy kid. i love my kindle so much, it's pretty cool. i can bookmark all the sentences i love and it will come out in a page altogether. :D

this weekend i gather all the courage and strength i have, be a big girl, slept early on saturday night and drove out to start my run at 5.30am on sunday. i am very stubborn and i just want to do that 30km before my marathon- i was feeling small and afraid of the marathon for a few weeks already, with a few long runs which i simply couldn't push myself far enough to reach 30. i did it today, it was painful of course, but it was worth one whole world and more because at kilometre 25, the feeling of really wanting to be at the marathon starting line and push through each mile swept over. it was spiritual, running is spiritual. that powerful belief that dawned this morning... is worth 30km and sore legs and blisters.

this week i will focus on tapering, loosen my legs, work some strength, watch my food, increase the carbs, get my bus tickets, build up my mental strength for the last 12km, be almost ridiculously positive this one whole week and not let any negative thoughts breakdown this whole building up to a marathon process. i know how letting one negative thought in and it's all gone, so this week is crucial, mental wise.

felt so blessed during today's run. i love my body and what it can do for me.

there are so many uncertainties in this life, and freaking out all the time isn't exactly funny. but somehow with enough love and support from the best people, i think i can handle this whole living my life business one day at a time.  happy father's day dad, you are the best.