of marriage

i did clinics just now. multiple sclerosis clinics, it's all good.. and emotional. patients came cos they relapsed, and some of them came for injections. the thing i wanted to say is.. half of them came with their husbands, and half without. some with their kids. finished clinics i put my legs up and lay in bed thinking.. hoping.. that if one day i get married.. i hope i will marry someone who would still stay with me if i have MS, when i couldn't move a muscle for many days, when i wobble, could see nothing, have all my spinal cord myelitis-ed and need big girl pampers and smell like pee. i saw a husband talking to the doctor privately as he was worried he might have done something wrong by placing a hot bottle over his wife's back when she had spasms..that was something nicholas spark couldnt compare. another unfortunate woman, her husband left her. nurse and doctor and I talked about it afterwards haha so yeah.. i hope i marry a man who will stay with me even i have MS, or stroke. touchwood

yeah. that was all that i was thinking about throughout clinics. don't judge.